It's the Thought That Counts

Sometimes in my alone-time I find myself… stuck. Usually it’s stuck on the couch, but not necessarily doing something. It’s strange really. Typically I’m staring at something or just staring off into space – not really noticing the thing I’m staring at, such as a wall.

Maybe I’ll start thinking about what it is I should be doing. Sometimes it’s simply recapping the day’s activities (usually work-related). Sometimes I think about what the perfect thing to say would have been – only it’s five hours after the fact and what’s done is done. “But it would have been so much better had I said _____ instead.” Oh well, what was or wasn’t said was meant to happen that way and the only thing we can do to make that experience more productive is to understand why we said or did what was said or done. Self-realization can lead to self improvement. Of course, people can likewise go down the other path where self exploration and realization can lead to depression which can lead to a nasty cycle and chain of events. It all depends on your whole outlook on things. It depends on what YOU decide on determining the results of your self-analysis.

Carrying on…

If I’m not thinking about something that happened in the recent or distant past, I sometimes think about future (hypothetical) events – near or distant. It’s almost like I go into the zone and since no one’s around – I’m usually content with just staying there for a while. Sometimes I’ll even go as far as having (in my head of course) a full-fledged imaginary conversation with someone I know (or don’t know, in some cases). Sometimes I wonder where it is that I’m getting the questions or answers from. Sometimes the answers or outcomes to these “conversations” are enlightening and sometimes, completely pointless.

I enjoy thinking. I tend to think I’m pretty good at it – not that it really takes all that much skill to be good at it though, maybe… . Sometimes I am dumbfounded about how many people these days apparently don’t think – or they don’t seem to anyways. Or maybe they do, but just don’t pay attention to what they know . Take right and wrong for example. I think that inherently, most people already know what the “right answer” is, but what can tend to happen is their desire get’s in the way and clouds their judgment.

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It appears that my engine has lost its drive and I’m starting to fumble with words. I have removed my last paragraph and on that note, I think it’s time to eat some food (food for thought?).

:-)